Feeling as fat as they think I am

I'm trying to ignore the weight gain but it's hard to ignore when it's been so much. 

I write in my journal usually handwritten and I forget about the blog. I shouldn't. 

Considering I put everything on FB, might as well post here too. Let's hope I remember to do it. 

This nursing home rehab place is fucking with me. Little do they know is that I'll fuck them back. Much harder. 

Anyway, I've never been an over-eater. I've never had any issue with food. I would always eat lots of sweets but never to the point that I gained crazy weight. I work out super hard all the time but the fact that I can't get up and work out the way I want to I'm gaining weight. 

Well fuuuuuuuck that. 

I've got to do something about it. 

It's really getting me down which makes me want to snack more. I don't have healthy snacks so it's bread or whatever. 

I just feel shitty about it, I'm getting slower, and I feel badly about it. I already feel bad about my lack of legs but this makes me feel worse. 

It's really getting to me. :/

In other stuff, I'm trying to get it together with my legs and learning to walk. It's harder than it looks.  Relearning to bend a knee is super hard. I did my best. And I do my best. My best isn't good enough. It's all I can do though. 

I'll be doing what I can. 

Anyway, I'm gonna finish watching Penny Dreadful and then try to do some writing. 

Until later

E

     Back in the day; about a year ago when I still had legs

Groovy contest for free knitters book!

Hey folks. Long time no see! Here is an awesome contest for a free knitting book. So if you're as addicted to it as I am, enter ans try to win. It's free and super fun. Plus their website is really amazing and has so many patterns and information on doing the best crafts possible. http://www.allfreeknitting.com/sweeps/november-knits-book-giveaway#contestTop Take care and enjoy! Mad love, Eman

Has it really been thAt long???

Crazy that I let life get so insane that I let it keep me from one of the few things that keeps me sane.

I have 3 beings lately that keep me feelings better most of the time. If not for Dave and our two bebes, I might be a bit worse off.

It's hard dealing with all I come with sometimes. After everything I've been through,all the physical and emotional pain, all the doctor visits and medication, all the ppl who have come and gone. I'm still here, dealing with the madness of my life.

But soon. Hopefully that will be over. I'm going to Acorn in November. I'll only be three for 3 weeks but I know it'll be the best 3 week ever. Just like going to that conference at Twin Oaks a few weeks ago was life changing in 4 days. It happens. Just depends on whats going on.

Flea markets gallllllore! This Saturday!

Hey folks! I'll be representing at the Bedstuy Pride this Saturday, August 26th from 12-6pm at Von King Park. It's on Lafayette and Tompkins. You cant miss it!

There will be music, food, beautiful ppl and of course ME selling the amazing Brilliance and Heart Jewelry!

I hope to see you there!

I'll be at the Dekalb flea market April 14 &15,11 am-6pm

Hey folks! So I'll be at the Dekalb Flea Market tomorrow, April 14th and 15th, from 11am-6pm. Dekalb Market is located at 138 Willoughby st at the Flatbush Ext. I'll have my earrings, necklaces, bracelets, scarves, hats, gloves, and more! So please come through and spread the word! Visit their site at www.dekalbmarket.com Mad love, Eman

Been a while, BUT Ive been a crochet machine!

Hey folks!

Thanks SOOO much for keeping i touch and staying tuned.

Ive made so many new pairs of earrings. And Ive come up with new designs. And I plan on taking pics of them all (on and off models) to showcase them.

Ill also be at more flea markets, selling on etsy, burda style and tophatter.

So stay tuned and keep in touch.

Mad love!

Eman

Etsy, Bonanza and more!

It's holiday time again and aside from spending time with loved one's, finishing up semesters at school and prepping for cold weather, it also means gift giving!

Well dear friends, look no further. There are new items available and more to come just in time for your search. Whether its a beautiful pair of the Jennah earrings for your mother, the chic Ameera cowl scarf for your sister, the golden Al-Dhahab earrings for an aunt or even a specially ordered hat, scarf or gloves for your dad, brother, or even some jewelry or accessory for your self, I know they'll all be pleased.

All my designs come from a place of creativity and love. I aim to please. So if ever there is a color, a size, a shape, a look you'd love to have, just ask and I'll do my best to make your wish come true.

Below there are links to see photos of the latest uploads. There are always more coming. And then of course, if you'd like to order something specific that I haven't listed yet, please email or message me and I'll be more than happy to help you.

Etsy: http://www.etsy.com/shop/BrillianceandHeart
Bonanza: http://www.bonanza.com/users/1234984/profile
Ravelry:http://www.ravelry.com/projects/faithmerciful
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/BrillianceAndHeartJewelry
Twitter: http://twitter.com/#!/emanrimawi


Take care and happy holidays!

Eman